Adeline and I dawdled all the way home walking for the most part at her pace, picking flowers until the started showing me signs that it was nap time(attitude, defiance… oy!) but our moments were just what I needed, as was the beautiful spring fields, and the sunshine was so warm and fresh, just what I needed to perk up my wilting, weary, heart.
I’ve been is such a funk lately, I think I’m ready for school to be finished now. These days i’m spread much too thin, it feels like Ada and I spend most of our days on the path to and from school! Cities are awesome, when you enjoy going to shoppes, or being on the go to parks and places, I feel like they are lost on us as I’m not really a fan of either, especially not on a time constraint. School has made me feel that I’ve lost quality time with both of my children, Jaime is tired on the way to school and tired on the way home (though he is great at school by the time i get him back overtired Jaime is quite weepy) Adeline spends most of her time in a stroller(on weekends I refuse to make her sit in one) then naps 3/6 school hours these days so we don’t really have time to play. Its been months, and I feel as though I have made no school age parenting progress, when will I get quality (non meltdown) time with them!?
This morning my walk with Ada proved to remind me that though our moments aren’t as distinct, they are there if I look hard enough, I just need to watch closer for my little moments, to make them happen and notice when they do organically. parenthood is the ultimate whirlwind, a blur of colors, kisses, and dandelion fluff.